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"the best thing i can do is just try to take care of myself." and i keep at it, and you just lay there and in the middle of my kissing your neck, you say very softly, very _uietly, "you're never gonna change," which isn't a statement so much as a reali_ation, and i say, "i don't want to change. change is for people who get it wrong."
--joe meno, bluebirds used to croon in the choir

on country roads at home there are rest stops off the river road. a gravel pull off leads to tall grass with a picnic table. we're in a car, i think it's a station wagon. we pull off and i am in a brady bunch scene. we pass the time with something wholesome. a whodunit game. we put in a yellow cassette and pass the tape around. it has a card with pictures and you're supposed to say what's happening...one person's card shows a gorilla and they get hit on the head by "greg", greg's wearing a frankenstein mask, and pass to the next. they're all getting knocked out. one by one. there is a flash of lightning and suddenly "greg" pulls off his mask to reveal that it's actually dan rather. he screams "giant rodent!" and i wake up.