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still haven't heard back on plans to go to cali next weekend. i'm so anxious i could burst. i need this. i really do. i'm trying not to get excited, but it's nearly impossible.
it's fall and i want to be in love.
two things i read today that stuck with me:
1. phlox had covered herself in pearls that day, at the earlobes, the throat, the wrist. as she moved her hands and head in the still-light evening, talking about herself, the pearls seemed to string and restring themselves on the invisible thread of her gestures.
2. i'm not saying i don't believe in god, because i do believe in god, even though it's more branche not to. but do you know what those christians told me? they told me i would have to learn to live without sex. i can't live without sex, art. it's ridiculous. if jesus really loves me, the he wants me to have sex.
