..::sparkle and fade::..

..::24.07.06::..
keeping a secret is harder than i thought. i think maybe i'm good at keeping secrets so long as they aren't mine. i really need to start thinking more...reading is helping. photos are helping. exercise seems to be helping mental state, but not helping in other areas. i don't know why that seems surprising...it is afterall july. and i know that historically that's been a crazy month...i just thought maybe this was the year it wouldn't hit me...or wouldn't be affecting. i guess when you go a week into the month without much ado you can be misled. or at least i can. i need more distractions.

on that note, i seem to have found my groove with photography again. and this makes me very very happy. and for once, it's not something that at this point is a passion that's putting me in the hole.

i remembered stolen things a lot today. my wallet. my camera. the contents of the jeep being strewn all over the street. the lens i could never afford to replace. the diary i'd carefully written in pieces everywhere. somewhere someone has film of my friends. somewhere someone might have my identity. somewhere i think people are honest and can be trusted.

cheers to mental clarity. will power. writing. and getting to know myself again.