..::sparkle and fade::..

..::11.12.06::..
i haven't written in a while mainly because i've been too busy. i had gotten siginificantly better for a time, at exercising my right to say no, but sadly it seems that for about a month i lost that ability. i lost myself and sleep to work. last week i realized i couldn't remember the last time i felt rested. sometimes i do it to myself--go out with friends and drink too much. smoke too much. live too much. but this was different. i pretty much stopped thinking on any level outside of work. even my dreams were stress dreams...and i was so tired i sometimes wouldn't realize it til days later...

i decided recently that i'm not ready to be an adult. i thought maybe i was ready to buy a place. and ready for dogs. but i'm not ready for either. after having watched two dogs for a week i relearned the reasons why i do not have one. it's too much responsibility for me now, living alone, etc. to have one. too much for my schedule. and definitely cramps my ability to do much of anything. i learned that a popular layout of condos in chicago isn't something i could live with--mainly a split level--cause there isn't any way to trap the heat and i freeze to death. one giant kitty with an attitude in an over-priced apartment seems just perfect for me for now.

this weekend i:
went to my favorite thrift store, bought an ugly sweater, went to an ugly sweater party, went to a show, introduced someone to the greatness that is photobooth pictures, made breakfast, lunch, ate my favorite sushi, bought fabulous christmas presents, went to the renegade craft fair, ate sweet potatoes that i actually loved for the first time ever, did laundry, and finally SLEPT.