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dinner last night was awesome. too bad i wasn't feeling 100%. i chalk that up to my stupidity and something i'm coming down with. ugh. i hate being sick. even worse was feeling sick that i'd potentially written something that had hurt someone else's feelings. was the last thing i meant to do. the last couple of weeks have been rough. i've been moody. not smoking is good and i don't think that's to blame. i just feel like i'm always on the phone lately. that i can't get anything done. and that my apartment is always in a state of chaos. i think i'm over my struggles though for the most part. things felt good again last night, even if i didn't. i love chicago, but man, when the weather sucks here it can bring people down. it's hard to have the motivation to leave the apartment when it's below zero out...and this whole not driving to work thing has definitely taken a toll on me maintaining cool too. i think i'll drive tomorrow just to avoid starting the day out badly. closing my eyes to avoid a panic attack just isn't fun, and if i feel like i did this morning, just isn't happening. bleh. i'm babbling. i'm out. here's my joy of the week. :)
