..::sparkle and fade::..

..::15.12.07::..
last night i heard my favorite sound in the world for the first time in at least a year. snow falling is silent, but walking on snow is fireworks. each step an explosion. it is appropriate that we had those fireworks. both a beginning and an end. the first time we said i love you. and maybe the last.

it's hard to fix something when it isn't broken. it's even harder when you can't find the part.

in the past week i have lost six pounds. lost myself. lost love. lost hope.

all is not hopeless. in fact, most is most likely for the better. taking from his list i'll put the following for future reference:

i would rather being alone than feeling alone.
i would rather feel than not.
memorable than nondescript.
trying than regret.
meaning. always.

i would rather have progress than stagnation.
learning than ignorance.
flying to falling.
thinking to not.

i fear
change, monotony, conflict and commitment.

i love
art, music, words and knowledge.

i am
independent, young, strong and going to get through this.